Side Story of me

I always thought we’d grow old together.
Facing each new day.
But now, in the tears that fall upon my face.
Your memory fades away.

We walked with our problems in silence.
Dawn falling into dusk.
Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet.
Along with what grieved us.

In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls.
I want to scream and shout.
My mouth opens, but the tortured words…
Just won’t come out.

You! This woman  I began to love.
Got lost for a “Nothing”.
Everything we’d built, destroyed.
Over one careless fling.

Used to think I was so lucky.
I had it all.
Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed.
You just watched me fall.

My heart bleeds.
Just like the snow becomes red.
How life has mocked you.
Were you ever here? memories gone, dead.

You like salt on an open wound.
Reminding me you once were here.
Warm like the blood in my veins.
The love I had for you, so dear.

In my distorted, broken dreams.
So empty, yet real.
I’m floating through air.
I touch your face, hoping to feel.

Sorry I loved you so.
And you didn’t feel the same.
When I think of what could have been.
What a waste! Such a shame!

Stone by stone, I’ll re-build my life.
I’m stronger when hardest hit.
I know only to well.
This is the time I must never quit.

My conscious asks the question.
I long to hear.
Is the grass really greener on the other side?
My conscious asks the question.
I will always fear.

Now I’m just hoping maybe tomorrow,
Maybe tomorrow there’ll be no more sorrow.
Maybe tomorrow you’ll give me a glance,
Mybe tomorrow you’ll give me one last chance.

Maybe tomorrow you’ll give me a call,
Maybe tomorrow I won’t cry at all.
Maybe tomorrow you’ll hug me tight,
Maybe tomorrow you’ll kiss me good night.

Maybe tomorrow you’ll take back my heart,
Maybe you’ll give me a brand new start.
I’m living with dreams that won’t come true,
For you will never love me as I love you.